Serendipity

2012-03-21T21:49:00.001+08:00

Why aren't you doing anything?
tell me why. i don't believe you don't know how i feel.
you should have known.
so you think this is how we're going to stay as?
i know you don't care. don't say you do.

2012-03-21T21:45:00.001+08:00

Hold it, don't cry.
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:'((((( i can't.......

2012-03-20T23:15:00.001+08:00

eh i very sad leh.

2012-03-20T23:13:00.001+08:00

i'm so tired but i still can blog.
-____- hahahah.

good luck to all the malaysians who are taking their SPM tml!
come on.. you guys..
your A- is our B3 leh?
if like that right, i already scored 5As alr?!

okay i seriously wanted to blog more. but i'm very tired..
these few days, so freaking tired, but when i lie on my bed, i can't sleep .shit..

okay goodnight everybody. so sorry for the short post.
xoxo.

just hope that you'd call.

2012-03-18T16:45:00.000+08:00

I'm in the study room now of Taylor's cus the library is closed.
forgot today is a Sunday :(
never really spent my weekends in the hostel.
but now i'm trying my best to not keep myself in my room anymore.
i get emotional and stuff.
sigh miss my mum, miss everybody.

my laptop battery, left 1 hr 02 mins.
haiyo... i think i'm going to start studying again after switching off my laptop.

today i woke up late again.
was going to wake up at 7am you know...
woke up at 10am pulak.
my dad called me, and i was trying to sound like i woke up long ago.
' GOOD MORNING DADDY!!!!!'
you know sometimes people will act to the extreme obvious. lol, ppl like me..
i was literally shouting Good Morning.

It's raining now in Singapore eh?
YES, MAKE IT RAIN IN KL!!!!!!!!!!
RAIN RAIN RAIN RAIN~~~~~~~
i'm feeling so hot la..
had a short break after studying right, i was wearing a jacket cus i was cold.
after walking to subway, i started sweating man.
super hottttttt.

and i couldn't take off my sweater cus i was just wearing a spaghetti strap inside.
stupid or what..
you know after having subway, i was still hungry..
so................................... i had chicken toastie from starbucks . hehehe.

i don't know when i was walking to starbucks.
i feel like i need a breather again?
am i not breathing properly or sth?
hahaha, not much oxygen is going up to my brain.
hence th constant headaches and silliness.

saw my friend in Subway, and two other friends in starbucks.
damn, one of them passed around some weird sweet.
and it seriously tasted like soap + perfume.
EEEEEWWWWWWWW.

Claimed my free drink, Cocoa Cappucino.
and was enjoying my time, skyping w mum and cousin.
then was sweating too much till i had to return to study room.
since my stuff were still there.
badly want to sleep right now.
but i should persevere.
*pat own head*
really feel that i've changed a lot LOL.
though my self-discipline still a bit.... like.. not under control haha!

can't wait to meet my sister this weekend la.
didn't see her for 2 weeks alr!!
can't wait to go back JB also, didn't see my home for 2 months also!!!!!

YOU KNOW I GOT A HUGE PROBLEM HERE.
IF I RETURN TO JB, WHO TH HELL IS GOING TO FEED MY FISH?!
oh no~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

okay Belle Monroe is going back to study now.

PS: at times like this, when i feel like i couldn't breathe. as if i am stepped on, or dealing w a huge work load,
i just want to hear your voice. i just want you to call. I miss you..

2012-03-18T03:17:00.002+08:00

I know right, it's 3am and i'm supposed to sleep already.
but because i had study session with Jani today.
only two chapters for IT but never mind la.
at least i studied!

and then we already talked about going to the gym.
so today we went to the gym, and then the girls there told us that we have to register online on our student portal.
okay fine....... so we sat by the staircase and used Jani's laptop to online and register and stuff.
by the way, we took like about 20 mins to do so? cus we couldn't find the bloody registration e-form online.
then i went in and asked them how to do it and stuff, and they were being such an ass okay.
so they made me pissed.
the worse part is when we already registered, then they told us that we have to wait for three working days.
for them to receive the i don't know what.
then they we can make payment, then we can finally go to the gym.
so basically Jani brought her gym stuff to uni for nothing.
and i can see she's quite pissed about it.
so now we have to wait until Wednesday till we can gym?
damn.

so...... afterwards we were so frustrated.
i was like, ' let's go Jani. let's go eat EVERYTHING. i'm so mad'
so we went to so many restaurants.
and finally settled down in Mamak. LOL.
stupid right?
cus i'm trying to help Jani save money
she's almost broke after buying sport shoes, putting aside money for gym and also money for Dinner and dance. still need a dress for that dinner somemore!
haiyo..

i don't know why. i was feeling soooo tired after eating.
it's like i have no energy at all.
no energy to even carry my bag you know.
went to the lake to feed the ducks, tortoises, fishes.
take a breather.
go to starbucks. sit there, switched on my laptop, damn the internet.
quickly dragged myself back to my room upstairs.
AND SLEEP.

sleep until 9pm!
then my dad called me . and i thought it was 9am in the morning.
i was like, Shucks, i was supposed to wake up at 7am !! then i realised it's night. lololol.

anyhow, i woke up and was feeling slightly refreshed. loll.
then started using com and stuff.
wanted to study la, but never mind. leave it to tml.
procrastination alert!

and people, you got to watch this movie.
IT IS SO NICE I SWEAR.
I was crying like some baby here.
my goodness.
first time watching a Thai movie that isn't scary LOL.
it's a bit like 那些年la..
i think.................
storyline is different but who cares!!
it's a loveeeeeeeee story.!
you guys should watch okay.
STRONGLY RECOMMENDED.

i already bookmarked a lot of shows from Youtube.
gonna watch it tml if i have the time!
my goodness can't wait!

IT test on Friday.
Malaysian studies test on Wednesday.
Marketing test right after my holidays.
i have no idea how am i going to study for Malaysian studies but i guess i'm going to just do the same, just like O levels. LOL.

you know what, i'm not tired yet.
hmmmm.
this is not good......
i shouldn't have slept for so long.
now i'm awake like an owl.
i need to force myself to sleep seriously.

okay goodnight everybody!
to those who are still reading my blog post,
GO TO SLEEP ALREADY!!

Goodnight!
xoxo.

2012-03-15T23:25:00.000+08:00

So...... why am i back to blogging already? Lolol.
blasting songs in my room, i think my housemate will be pissed at me.
Oopsie...

Anyhow, i had another study session with Jani today!
only for a chapter on marketing. but it's fine....
we tried our best LOL!

sorry that i had to post this video because this song is too nice hahaha.
well...... sorry again for the fireworks sound. couldn't find any other version!
but i actually watched this video just now, and the fireworks are so beautiful!
my god... a bit romantic also. LOL.

back to my topic, i studied with Jani today!!!!!!!
best part is, we did almost half our Microsoft Powerpoint portfolio.
like FINALLY.......

next week is IT online MCQ test, my goodness.
haven't been studying IT.
seriously, there is no other way, other than memorizing that one chunk of paper.
because i'm not a freaking engineer, i can't memorize all these program things can i?
no i can't.
so to hell w IT. i'll find a way. or maybe i can sit beside my friends and do IT quiz together hehehehehehhe.

i'm thinking what to write now. hmmmmmmmmmmm.
oh ya! Jani is still deciding whether she should go for Dinner and Dance.
and she was like.. ' i dont know if i should go, i don't have a date!!'
HAIYA DON'T NEED A DATE LA....
need meh?
i don't think we'll succeed in finding a date since 6th of April is the event alr.

kay anyhow, i'm going back to JB on the 26th hahahaahahhahhahhaha.
i'm so happy! mum said she left a lot of treasure at home for me. YIPEEEEE~
clothes, make up, money, credit card, voucher.
meaning i can go shopping to use up the voucher!
i'm so happy omg i cant keep it in.

i'm standing up and blogging because my mum said i'm a lazy pig who doesn't exercise.
and i'll be very very fat since i don't go the gym either.
who said so! i am going okay! SOON! you wait....
waiting for Jani to buy her sports shoes, then off we go!

i dont like to go to the gym alone.
Jani was like, ' i dont like going to the gym at my place. it's like all guys in there. feels like a cockfest or something'
at first i seriously don't get it, and they were laughing like crazy so nobody explained to me what on Earth she was talking about. then i finally understood. -__________-

suddenly remembered singing ' you raise me up' with Nathan and Waichun in KTV.
almost cried in the ktv man. and Nathan had his oral presentation today, tears was welling up in my eyes.
so touching, so upsetting.... :'(
and then we sang .... so many songs i can't rmb. oh ya! waichun ordered so many jay chou songs.
and this song ' 说了再见 '.
i told him this song really have so much memories, and he told me he listened to this song when he broke up with this girlfriend.
he used to sing in ktvs and cry. lololol.
but somebody big boy alr la... won't cry anymore.
when we sang ‘你是我的眼’, i was literally singing w my idk what.. lungs?
it's like i didnt sing like normal. i wasnt shouting but i was singing so loudly like with so much emotions until i can cry you know?!
hahahah you get it?
then we ended ktv session with some Screamo songs that Waichun ordered.
what the hell, i can't believe i sang along with them.
the throat like cannot use anymore after ktv session. hahahhahhaa.
supposed to have pizza? but both of them forgot :(
so they went to Starbucks for a smoke, while i go to Forever 21 and started shopping shopping shopping.
spending spending spending. no money no money no money.
Rich husband, where you?
notice the fact where i don't use Boyfriend anymore?
ok too personal, cannot tell you guys.
hehehehehe.

why is it that today i have so much to blog about? hahahah.
i kinda miss blogging.
just want to tell those who are reading my blog.
regardless if it's just one or two people reading this, but i hope you understand, that i dont really like people sharing around whatever i post here. let people read my blog themselves kay?
this blog isn't private, for a reason. i might as well go back and write my own diary. lollll.
i believe that you chance upon this blog because......... i also dont know.
YOU STALKER OR SOMETHING?!
hahahahah just kidding....
seriously, thanks for reading my blog.
at least i feel like i'm blogging to somebody who reads this. :)
thanks ah.. but don't share share around okay! rmb ah!

Wan Si Yun, if you're reading this, (in which i know there's only you who's reading my blog, haha!)
i miss you la.. i'll be back on 26th. try my best to meet you guys kay?
Love you!

you know what, i had coconut today and i have SLIGHT gastric now.
in which i'm so happy.
i used to get serious gastric rmb?!
omg i'm so happy for this achievement.
though i did nothing, and idk why it turned out like this.
hahahaha, i'm so pro.

ok, can't wait to go home like seriously.
eat all the good food, pack EVERY SINGLE THING FROM MY HOUSE TO MY HOSTEL IF POSSIBLE. LOLLL. i'm getting my dad to fetch me to KL so that i can bring as much stuff back here.
i only have a bear here :'( its small but i hug it every night. feel secured and safe.
you guys should see how i sleep. hahaahhaha.

mum is leaving to China in 4 hours! :'(
miss you mummy. take care okay..
please skype with me more often.
i cannot stand the feeling of being alone la ...

WHAT THE HELL IT'S 12AM ALR, HOW COULD IT BE!!!!!!!!

okayokayokay, my bear is calling me to sleep alr..
goodnight everyone ! :)

2012-03-14T22:32:00.003+08:00

had a study session w Thejani today.
it was a success ! :)

i have no idea why im' back to blogging. but i just feel like blogging tonight.

anyhow, just discussed w chuck and we still dont know if we should attend Taylor's 1st Annual Ball or Dinner and Dance 2012 w the business students.
damn, it's such a hard choice to make.
my mum was like telling me to choose th one that could benefit me.
so it's the dinner and dance? cus i'll get to meet ppl from Business school.
i dont really feel like seeing familiar faces lol.
that's so bad of me right.
i think i should settle w Dinner and Dance. hmmmm.
还有hor,快点有人叫我做他的伴Leh,我不想跟那个人去。。。。
快点，有没有人要我？
calling once.... calling twice.......

and the next thing is, should i dye my hair before i go back to JB?
heard that the hair salon in Taylor's is like really amazing.
hmmmm. still deciding~~~~
why so many hard decisions to make ah?
why loving you isn't a hard decision ah?
lolll. kay out of topic...

you know today i was lying by th lakeside. watching th ripples on th lake, watching th fishes swimming in th lake. then i looked up at th sky. seeing two parts of a cloud. slowly joining together. it was like two parts of a heart. wow.
was i imagining it? hahaha, study until crazy alr.........

there was only one star in the sky. how pathetic.
hmmm, but it's nice looking at the sky.
and it'll be nicer to know that someone out there might be thinking about me.

Be happy :)

2012-03-13T23:29:00.002+08:00

brings back so many memories when i played this song.

had oral presentation today, nervous like shit.
got 15/20 in th end, very happy!

have yet to start w my marketing and economics assignment.
it's okay, will start maybe tml.
and will hit the gym on thursday too.
HOPEFULLY..

so sad, lecturers never will spoon-feed you.
kay going to sleep now :)

ooooooh, this is cool! i can highlight whatever i'm writing!
this is so fun lolllll.

kkkk, going to sleep now :)
goodnight everybody........ as if people do read my blog -.- lollll.

Faith. Hope. Believe.

2012-03-05T19:52:00.001+08:00

2012-02-29T22:52:00.002+08:00

That day, you were the one who said you're going to talk to me when you get home.
and i waited, till now :'(

2012-02-23T21:10:00.000+08:00

i'm super weird these few days. i keep crying!
seriously Belle, you gotta study...

i think i've been crying watching touching videos and listening to emo songs.
i'm listening to one now. :(
seriously man! i gotta stop! i need to buck up.. this isnt high school, it's uni.
ohmygod. somebody take away my laptop............
no it's okay, somebody just bring me home and turn back the time..

2012-02-20T21:54:00.001+08:00

有太多往事就别喝下太少酒精
太珍惜生命就别随便掏心
舍不得看破就别张开眼睛
想开心就要舍得伤心
有太多行李就别单独旅行
不能够离开就不要接近
舍不得结束就别开始一段感情
想忘记就要一切归零
不能够忘记爱情忘记伴侣忘了孤寂
也至少忘记当初为何在一起
到最后忘记眼神忘记脸庞忘记身体
怕只怕我们忘了决心忘记

2012-01-28T23:35:00.002+08:00

I'm not supposed to blog now because i was playing mahjong halfway, then i realised my phone was out of battery, so i excused myself and went into th room to take my charger. AND THEN I REALISED I DID NOT BRING MY CHARGER..................... HAIYO!
oh, anyway i'm staying at my relative house because i'm only moving into Taylor's on feb 1st.
so i'm very happy because i get to spend time w two of my close relative who came back from Melbourne recently. i only get to see them once a year ):

EH EH EH! YOU KNOW I LEARNT HOW TO PLAY MAHJONG AND I WON 5 TIMES IN A ROW!!!! LIKE SERIOUSLY, I'M GOD NOW. *applause*

kkk talking about Taylor................................
okay so.......... i went to Taylor's and th lakeside campus is NAISEEEE!
my mum said that there'll be a lot of rich kids (or family income at least above average) there, so i decided.... TO BE DIFFERENT. in a way, example.... an ugly girl who wears geek specs, jeans, t-shirt.......

LOLOLOL why am i doing this to myself..
okay maybe not. i just dont want to pressurise myself by choosing nice clothes everyday!
i don't want to make those extra efforts to dress up, it's gonna be tiring.
if i am still young, i bet i'll wear make up as if they're free.
SIAO....
i promise myself that i must look simple and natural. :D :D :D :D
can do?

Okay i must share this good news, which is............ i was supposed to share a room w someone else right. BUT MY MUM UPGRADE MY ROOM. LOLLLLLLLLLLLL.
okay not really, i'm just not living in th private condo beside Taylor's.
that agent seriously didn't explain to me properly. and i realised th condo isn't under Taylor at all. it's a PRIVATE accommodation, which means if i get killed in that condo, Taylor won't take responsibility. what the...
so, i'm going to move in into Taylor campus. Best part, SINGLE ROOM!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!
my school will just be downstairs, and i'm going to have an amazing one year there.
because i don't need to take any sort of buses back home. i can study in th library till midnight, then back to my room without feeling scared. (((((: GOOD RIGHT...
but there's this stupid rule that students can only stay inside th Taylor campus for a year, tsk.
guess i need to make new friends, move out together in th second year.
okay let's not talk about School anymore.
this time school sucks even more because i need to take malaysia studies, moral and malay!!!

OKAY, I HAD A GREAT TIME W MY GIRLFRIENDS AND GUYFRIENDS TH DAY BEFORE I LEFT FOR KL. SUPER HAPPY!!!!
Thank you all for taking time out, and come to Junjie's house for gathering.
feel so blessed, having all of you as my friends..
all of you must take care okay. )':
miss you all so much...

那些年，我们一起做的傻事。

2012-01-26T00:33:00.002+08:00

i made my decision, i'm going to KL to study. it's so sad............

I WANT TO CRY WHILE TYPING THIS OMG.

it's not like i'm not going to come back anymore right......

but memories, makes me want to stay. it's crazily fun when i'm w my friends.

Friends are my everything.

sometimes i go to school because of my friends .. lollll.

so... tml i'm going out with my girlfriends and guyfriends.

gonna have a blast w them before i leave for kl.

PLEASE AH, ELLINA PLEASE DON'T CRY.

anyway, i'm just going to be in KL guys... it's only 518451265403165123564 miles away from all of you ..

mm hmm, not that far, not that far...

))))))))))))))))))))))))))))': IT'S SO FARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR~

I'M GOING TO MISS ALL OF YOU, AND I'M SERIOUSLY GOING TO CRY NOW . MY EYES ARE WATERY.....

*wipes tears*

FIRSTLY, thank you sooooo much to my teachers, schoolmates,esp classmates, who helped me a lot when preparing for O levels. i studied last minute and needed so much help. some people even went to RP w me for tutoring. some ppl accompanied me to see teachers after school. some people tolerated w my irritating number of questions whenever i got lost in class. some schoolmates explained what is going to come out for O levels on msges. some people patiently explained to me when i don't understand.

My classmates, WE ARE SO TRAGICALLY CRAZY. we never learn our lesson lolllllll.

we always gossip about teachers rmb, hahahaha. Th funniest part is when some teachers break voice LOLOLOLOL, then all of us look at each other trying our best not to laugh. everytime when relief teacher come in, WAHLAUUUUU FUN OR WHAT?!

haiyooooo, Ms Yap was right, 2011 will end in a flash. and now all of us are going our separate ways. cant believe i'm th one leaving first. )':

i just want all of you to know, th littlest thing all of you do, i remember them. some of you who gave me cards, letters, small notes, i do keep them. even those wordings written on tissue paper. (': i'll read them every now and then, as motivation. i know all of you will support me in whatever i do. Thank you so much, everyone of you. (':

Secondly, my girlfriends... ah, all of you.. such a dear...

although we seldom go out for outings, but we still try to make time for each other.

those days when we see each other in th canteen, although we have our own friends. but we don't neglect each other. it makes me smile when i think about those times when we go out for a simple lunch in a group.

Every time when one of us are in trouble, relationship problems, friend problems, th rest of us will come together and comfort that person. Birthday surprises, birthday celebrations, barbecue,you all still rmb them?

Girlfriends, i will miss all of you. because all of you gave me th most support. This special friendship, will never be forgotten. i'm now a strong girl ! i can take care of myself and i'm going to be independent this time. i hardly get sick now, immune system upgraded alr. haha, dont worry about me okay? *hugsssss*

Lastly, guyfriends.. Oi brothers, some of u always tease me right.. i won't forget....... >:)

but still, some always gave me support. especially nearing O levels, thank you so much.

those days when we go out for birthday celebrations with girlfriends, remember? so cute right, out together in a biggg group. some of you always like to go to Seoul Garden to eat, I SERIOUSLY DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY. IT'S SO SMELLY.

anyway, we took a lot of pictures, and i still have them.

will print it out and use pins to pin at all ur faces.

thank you again for everything guys.. *hugsssss*

i cannot mention my family here. I WILL CRY AN OLYMPIC POOL OF TEARS. it's late now and i need to wake up early tml you know~~~~~~~~~

i actually want to thank all of you individually, but so sorry i'm leaving on th 27th.

so i cannot meet some people ): wait till i'm back okay?

meanwhile, all of you must take care.. we'll contact each other on fb! anything leave me a msg there ya.

even if all of you make new friends, don't forget me okay?

Schoolmates, i'm th malaysian girl who have a white face but dark eye circles.

Classmates, i'm th one who always eat in class so obviously. but teachers never call out my name.

Girlfriends, i'm th sick chicken, who always get sick. ):

Guyfriends, i'm..... Belle Leow Lizhi laa, YOU CAN TRY AND FORGET ME..

We're going to be friends forever. I love all of you (': *Hugs and kisses*

2012-01-15T00:58:00.001+08:00

i think i'm in love w Steve Chou.... his songs just tug at my heart strings )': and they make me sad..
YA I'M SO SAD NOW.........

i'm supposed to wait for th washing machine to finish washing my clothes so that i can put it into th dryer, that's why i'm using th laptop at 1am.. th clothes are actually done, haha! i'm just so lazy.. can i just go to sleep...

this isn't going to be a long post because my eyes are fighting against gravity LOL.
OKAY I'M LAZY TO TYPE FURTHER, JUST GOING TO END HERE.
GOODNIGHT!

2012-01-12T20:34:00.001+08:00

so sad.... )':